Day 2: In telling someone about my happy project, how I want to talk about my successes along with my struggles, they took it as I wanted to throw a pity party.
I'm not about to do that. I've spent way too much time crying over people and things not even worth it.
Yes, I've had a tough time with finding myself, but I know not all of it was terrible. Just like everyone else, I've had good days and I have bad. I'm choosing to find the good in each day.
This is to show that I can be strong. I don't need an approval for this. This is mine. I can do hard things. I can be me.
I can find my happiness.
Thursday, February 26, 2015
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
The Beginning of Happiness
Today is my birthday. I am now 23. There's nothing like a big event in your life that makes you want to try something new. I guess that's what this is for.
Last night, I was thinking back on last year. My 22nd year was really rough for me. I got really sick to the point where I couldn't eat or speak for months. I lost a lot of friends and didn't know who I could trust. I moved out on my own with someone I had never met before. I started a new job that can be exhausting.
All these things may not seem like much, but it has added up to a lot on my plate. I was overwhelmed. I was stressed. I was emotional. I was not happy.
My new roommate asked me what I do for myself. Something that no one else can take away from me. I thought about this a lot and realized that I couldn't think of anything. I have spent my whole life doing what others want. Being someone others wanted me to be. Taking care of others needs before my own. I wasn't happy.
I've been a pushover. A people-pleaser. I haven't stuck up for myself because I was worried about what others would think of me.
Well, not anymore. I am going to stand up for myself. I'm going to do things that I want to do. I'm going to take care of myself. I'm going to be happy.
I'm not expecting anyone to read this. I don't even know if I'll even let others know about this blog. This is just for me. To talk thru my problems. To celebrate my successes.
If someone out there does read this, I hope you find inspiration to find your happiness. To overcome whatever has been challenging you, and to feel the inspiration to know that you can do it. I'm someone you can talk to.
This post is just the beginning of a long, hard journey. But I can do it.
I will find my happiness.
Last night, I was thinking back on last year. My 22nd year was really rough for me. I got really sick to the point where I couldn't eat or speak for months. I lost a lot of friends and didn't know who I could trust. I moved out on my own with someone I had never met before. I started a new job that can be exhausting.
All these things may not seem like much, but it has added up to a lot on my plate. I was overwhelmed. I was stressed. I was emotional. I was not happy.
My new roommate asked me what I do for myself. Something that no one else can take away from me. I thought about this a lot and realized that I couldn't think of anything. I have spent my whole life doing what others want. Being someone others wanted me to be. Taking care of others needs before my own. I wasn't happy.
I've been a pushover. A people-pleaser. I haven't stuck up for myself because I was worried about what others would think of me.
Well, not anymore. I am going to stand up for myself. I'm going to do things that I want to do. I'm going to take care of myself. I'm going to be happy.
I'm not expecting anyone to read this. I don't even know if I'll even let others know about this blog. This is just for me. To talk thru my problems. To celebrate my successes.
If someone out there does read this, I hope you find inspiration to find your happiness. To overcome whatever has been challenging you, and to feel the inspiration to know that you can do it. I'm someone you can talk to.
This post is just the beginning of a long, hard journey. But I can do it.
I will find my happiness.
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